Thoughts

Oh my.. people actually read this blog. I thought this was just a place I could rave and rant cos I am a little lazy to write in my diary by hand and typing is just much faster. Oh wells.

You know what hurts. Love hurts. And I am not even talking about BGR here. Friendship hurts. To love a friend so much, to be so close to someone. Now that hurts. It hurts that you just can't understand the person and the person can't understand you. It hurts when you know you hurt the person. ARGHHHHHHHHHH.....

There was a time in my life where I was excited for God. There was a time when I was brimming with passion and was willing to go any distance for God. Now I feel tired. Yes, I will still do 'things' for God. But undeniably, I am tired. I feel like I am stuck in a rut. Going neither here nor there. I even wonder at times whether I just do what I do for people.

Right now, I just feel like my life is in pieces. I know I need God to come pick the pieces up for me. I need Him to piece them together. To make me whole in Him. But as I wait, I just feel I keep breaking up over and over again. I just keep shattering. There's just so much in me that I need to deal with but I don't know how. I just wish.. I just wish I could forget everything.